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No one can save me,
I'm all alone,
I have no one.
I have to fight this war
All by myself.

I'm going to fail,
I'm going to die.
I'm going to give up.
I can't escape the sound
Of my enemy's screams,
Only to realize that the
Screams are my own.

My knees hit the floor,
And I lay there,
Scared to move,
Scared to breathe.

I'm scared of myself.
No one can make me better,
They've all tried and failed.

I'm a lost cause.
I'm not able to be found.
No one can hear me scream,
No one knows the monster I really am.

I need to find a way to escape this pain.
I've tried everything...
I know there's one more thing I haven't tried...

But I'm terrified to attempt it.
I'm scared I'll fail at it,
Just like I've failed at everything else.
But I know I have to do it.
Nothing else will work.

I write the note out,
Telling everyone I'm sorry,
Wishing I could change things,
Telling them I love them
And that it's not their fault,
That it's mine...

I sit alone,
My back pressed
Against a wall,
A bottle of whiskey
In my shaking hand.
I'm trying to numb myself
So that way I won't back out
Of doing this...
I've gotten this far,
Why stop now?

I tie the noose,
And slip it over my head,
Where it now rests around my neck.
I'm standing on a chair,
Waiting for my heart to stop
Hammering inside my chest...

I take a deep breath,
Knowing it will be my last,
And I look at the picture I hold
In my trembling hands,
A picture of the only boy I've ever loved,
And I can feel tears stream down my face.

I whisper I'm sorry and I love you.
Then I kick the chair over...

Suddenly I realize that I can still see
My lifeless body,
But I wonder why.

Then I look behind me,
And see Death himself standing,
His arms outstretched to embrace me.

I take one last look at myself,
My body swinging by the end of the rope,
My eyes dead and my skin cold as ice.
I look at the note that's fallen on the floor.

Then I look at Death,
And walk towards Him,
And I know nothing more
Of the life I once led...
I'm not suicidal, I promise. It just sorta came to me.
DifferentOnTheInside Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Photographer
I love this and hate it at the same time... It's icy and very chilling, but well written and compelling.
XxDemonicAngel666xX Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
why thank you :)
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